Posted by Elaine (24.88.1.67) on January 22, 2000 at 20:04:48:
In Reply to: Theory #6 posted by Todd on January 22, 2000 at 16:56:31:
I know that I am going to make some people very unhappy and God knows I do not want to do that. But I have to speak my mind! Todd when you brought up theory 6! I became mad as hell I wanted to chew you up and spit you out ! I dare you say its all in my head that I am nuts, I been dealing with remarks like this for 20 years now someone with clusters has the nerve to say this and post it.
Then the tears started falling! I then thought what if Todds theory’s right! And all these others are wrong. It’s possible. Why do I not want to talk about this? Why? Its like any other theory why can’t I open my minds to this. I will tell you why cause I fear that being it ! I fear being stamped crazy that I have a mental problem! I stay away from things I fear I get mad and lash out when I am afraid.
If Todds theory is right and I don’t think it out and explore the possibility, I am going to be afraid the rest of my life. I don’t want a closed mind and I have to explore it . I hurt and any theory that is sat in front of me has and will be explored with a open mind cause I want to stop the pain, I am sick and tired of living with it. I think its worth talking about!