Posted by Jim G. (198.81.16.159) on January 17, 2002 at 03:49:01:
ok this is the worst it's ever been for me not only am i dealing with having the flu for the last 2 days but today i haven't had a break in my headaches for more than and hour and for the first time ever i'm feeling a little suicidal. the verapamil isnt working (360 mg) and no word yet from the medical group about the O2. i've been in pain now for almost 3 mos. and off work the same time with no relief, my sleep habits are completely shot to hell, can't remember the last full night i had. I'm not what you would call a religous man but on Jan 8 i went to meet a rock hero of mine (Gene Simmons of KISS) and all i could do was pray for one evening pain free so i could enjoy the meeting. well it wasn't totally pain free but the 2 or 3 20 minute headaches i did get were acceptable, and the evening went great. But for the most part I've gotten to the point where I don't want to go anywhere or do anything for fear of getting a cluster and ruining the fun for everyone involved. now more than ever i need your help or new ideas cause people i'm startin to lose it. HELP!!