Posted by brianj on March 24, 1999 at 00:29:42:
In Reply to: I Won! not. posted by John S. Davis on March 23, 1999 at 15:27:06:
with the way these things act, it's real easy to start thinking they are intelligent (and out to get me). this morning i got one (about a 6 or 7) and decided i was going to sit and meditate until it went away. it didn't go away, but i got it down to about a 3 and was feeling really good about myself.
this was of course after my post the other night. so i'm thinking about how i've reached a turning point, and got a little hope back. i'm thinking that i may not need all of these different drug therapies, that i'll just make a decision to sit and meditate every time i get a ch no
matter how long it takes. now i look at your post and look back at my own experience and how long i kept myself from receiving treatment for whatever reason. maybe i have reached a turning point and will be able to manage these with willpower and meditation, maybe (probably) not.
maybe no matter what i do there will be days when i end up in a panic thinking about suicide and wanting to do anything to make the pain go away. i hope not, because it certainly feels good right now thinking that i will be able to manage them. i am trying to make how i relate to ch's
and how i incorporate them into my view of the world and how things work in it a lare part of my treatment plan along with drugs and whatnot to help me handle the pain when it gets too strong. if nothing else, i guess ch's can be a good teacher (though given a choice, i think i would
pick another teacher in a second.) i hope i made at least a little sense, i still feel kind of like a newbie when it comes to dealing with the ch.
good luck,
-brian