Posted by stavi (209.38.4.61) on August 11, 2000 at 12:40:36:
In Reply to: So tired posted by Amanda Best on August 11, 2000 at 01:29:44:
I have certainly heard your name mentioned around here before - always with love! It's obviouus a lot of people around here care deeply about you!
What clusterheads have to deal with is a lot more then just the actual pain. The residual effects are sometimes even harder to deal with. We all know we can at least survive an attack, but it's how are lives are forever effected that is sometimes hardest to deal with.
I too am not in a cycle now. When the last one ended, I was forced to look around at the shattered fragments of parts of my life that had been so deeply effected by my last bout. In fact, I am facing what will be the hardest day of my life thus far today - a direct effect of these damn CH's. I am scared, I am terrified, but last night, I had a thought...
Perhaps we are an unfortunate group of CH sufferers. But I refuse to say that there is not at least one positive result we can take with us. I believe that we are a group of STRONG people, people who have had to face the depths of hell, and lived to tell about it. We know we can survive thru pain. We know we can feel pain, and emotions, and the depths of OURSELVES, unlike a person who has never had to face anything like this. And maybe the best part - we can connect with a group of people facing similar situations everyday right here on CH.com, and make deep bonds with one another, and help each other face the pain, face the emotions and face ourselves!
Amanda, there are people here who truely care about you! I may never have met you before, but I can tell you this - I am one of those people! And I can promise you that today, when I am facing a tough moment, I will think about YOU! I will feel strength knowing that you are still fighting too!
Best wishes Amanda, and feel free to e-mail if you need a new shoulder!!!!