Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.228) on October 15, 1999 at 04:42:32:
In case anyone wondered since last night was light and nearly blissful: the beast has reared it's ugly head again tonight and I cannot even lie down without getting hit. I am shadowing heavy and have had two tens and one 7. Trying to keep the sunny side up, though my soul is bruised. I am still thankful for the 6 hours I got, but am wondering if that is my only break between rounds. Can'y help to ask that question, after the way the beast has treated me.
And my post below is obviously not my last, but it is the last one I will leave in regards to the bashers and haters on the board who wish to do nothing more than inflict emotional pain on the suffering. Therefore, I am asking my big brothers and sisters here to stand up for me. I have enough battles on this end without having to fight a cyberbattle with someone who doesn't care who they hurt. I am a thick skinned person - until this cycle, and now feel as though It is wearing thin.
Praying for a better tomorrow, hurting, but hanging in there. CARL D - The FREEK