Posted by Christel (152.163.194.184) on October 02, 2001 at 00:03:06:
For the past 3 1/2 hrs I have been fighting this damn thing and I am losing my faith with all of this medicine crap. I was really proud that my last dose of anything (Phrenlin Forte) was at 7am this morning so when this thing hit tonight I thought the Stadol would kick right in like it did yesterday. No such luck! 2 doses of Stadol, .5mg Ativan and 120mg Verapamil later and I'm still ready to ram my head into the monitor here. I really don't know how I'm doing this, maybe it's just something to distract me in between the pacing. I'm sorry if I sound like I'm whining but there is nobody else that knows but you guys. I have been on this site for a couple of days and sometimes it has made me cry when people describe what they are going through because I can't believe you all know how this feels. Next Monday, I get to go to a pain clinic for the first time...I just have to get through this week first. From the sounds of it though, they probably aren't going to be much help. Maybe I'll finally get my oxygen because it helps sometimes. Sure wish I had it now. hold on...Whew I think things are easing up a bit...maybe it helped to focus on something else for a little while. Maybe now I can get the frozen veggies off of my head and take the sunglasses off (monitor was too bright) so my cat, Cerveza, will stop looking and laughing at me (sometimes he walks with me at night). Sure would be great if I could get a few winks tonight. Again, I'm sorry, just didn't know how else to get through this right now. Thanks for letting me ramble on and a special thanks to DJ for ever thinking up this site in the first place. Been doing this off and on for 22 yrs and this cycle since June. Hope to talk to you all and let you know if I find out anything new from the docs (it sounds like everyones been there and done that...but who knows?)
Love, Christel