Posted by Paula (205.188.198.176) on January 08, 2001 at 00:18:42:
In Reply to: Paula and Melissa... posted by jackie L on January 07, 2001 at 04:23:23:
Jack was on the resporater till Thursday but his O2 leavel was still way down so they had him on a O2 mask. The he went to a canal. But his heart started taking extra beats, up to 160 so the had to try to fix that. He got up into a chair yeaterday and they moved him out of ccu today. He is so weak he can barely open his eyes. he may say hello but thats about it. He is improving everyday but I didn't expect him to be so weak. He is my rock you know. I haven't anyone here to talk to and by yeaterday The tears started to flow and they would not quit. His nurse held me. Thank you Jessica. It helped build some strength to fell a bit better today. I don't know when he will get out. They will not send him home, he will be goning to a rehabilitation center. It's just another word for nursing home and it scares the hell out of me. He is 18 years older than me and he never looked or acted it. Now he looks so old it scares me so bad. His daughter came from s.d. it has made things harder for me. For some reason both she and his son ddon't like me. They are not mean but are so indifferent that it hurts. I want us all to be a family. To get to know eachother so we can all be supports of eachother in all things. But they don't care to. I wwonder why my loving there dad is not alright with them? Jack told me I saved his life. That without me he wouldn't care what happened. I feel the same way about him. He is my best freind and my true soul mate in life. Our Love is so deap and has grown more than I ever thought you could love someone. Can they not see this? I don't understand. He hasn't alot of money or things for someone to want so why do they treat me like i shouldn't love him so much? She is leaving mon night and I am kinda glad. I wish we could talk but I don't even know what to say. So i'm gona concentrate on Jack. I hope he gets stronger day by day. and I hope time goes by fast so he'll be home beside me soon. I miss him so much I just ache inside and often cry myself to sleep because I just want him beside me. I Thank God and you all for your prayers. I must remember to give God credit for all the little miricles I am sure are to come along. It's hard to do. We humans always wantmore and more ddon't we. Never really satisfied. But if we were satisfied what would there be to strive and live for? Thanks for letting me go on and on. Thank you my freinds for being here. PFDAN to you all and your Loved ones. Love Paula