Posted by Jonathan (195.157.33.170) on July 06, 2000 at 07:14:32:
Well, that's it.... It's official. 18 months off and now they're back again. I don't
believe it. I was doing so well. I used to be chronic before and then finally
managed to shake the beast off. Then as if by magic, just when I don't need it in my
life. Here I am in full bout with none of my old meds working and my GP
refused point blank to issue me with drugs more affective without first going to see
my neurologist at Charring Cross hospital, who has just made his secretary
redundant due to lack of funding and I just found out lost my paperwork for as week
or so in the confusion. So I've been waiting for what seems tooooooo long to seee
someone and get meds that are effective against his thing. AAHHHEEERRRR! I
would go private except no one in this bloody country will insure me for CH's.
I'm so hacked off. I just quit my job to move to another one hopefully in Nice
France and had everything ready to go. I didn't expect this thing to come back and
my meds to fail on me. Why.. Why now.. Did I do something wrong and am
being punished for it. So So SOOOOOOOOOOOOO unfair... I just needed to
vent.
Sorry I know that my situation is not the worst of the lot, I just needed to get some
anger out of my system with people that will understand my frustration. Why is
it that I feel as if there are a bunch of people out there who are allowed to be
reckless, drink, smoke, stay up late and have a laugh. And then there's us, just
trying to get through the moments between the pain when we function on at least
two of the four cylinders impaired by our medication. Meds that don't even work
all the time!!
Thanks for listening.