Posted by Chuck (208.152.130.3) on January 21, 2000 at 23:59:06:
Well I thought I was out of the cycle, but it appears that the freaking BEAST was just taking a break. In the last 24 hours I have had multiple ( lost count ) attacks,several of them have been 5 and 6's ( more like 15 16,s ) But this last one was strong 7-8. Im upand my body is just tore up from all the Imitrex I have had to take. around 8:30 tonight while fighting this Pain off which came on at work around 3:30 I asked my wife to please get me another shot of Imitrex she asked me how much have I already taken, I replied it dont matter anymore I want this PITCH FORK out of my head, if my heart locks up then atleast I'll be free. So know I sit here groggy from the Imitrex reflecting on how lucky I am to be sitting here typing and how selfish I was to be willing to leave the only person that is held dear in my heart. I cant help the way this devil makes me feel when he,s throwing his pitch fork around in my head.
The one thing no one person can say that doesnt have CH is " I know how you feel " and the one thing us Clusterheads cant say to a supporter is " I know how you feel " I cant imagine my wife telling me to just let me die. That in it,s self would kill me.
This is the first time I got to cry on someones shoulder that has CH and I sure hope this is the forum for this' If someone ( a supporter maybe ) has some words of encouragement for my wife it would be well recieved for I dont know what to say to make feel better. Thanking you in advance CHUCK