Posted by Gary on October 29, 1998 at 12:48:07:
~~~~The third big part of the mental effects I notice is unpredictability of expressed personality - what I say to and do around other people. Obviously, when driven by the pain of an attack, I'm apt to snap, snarl and bark at anyone/thing that I cross.
~~~~I'm more concerned about intermission periods when I get all fouled up in this department, and don't even realize it. This happened some yesterday - just seemed to get "mean" and didn't even realize it until wife gave me the "who hit you with the nasty stick?" bit. Then realized I'd spent the day being a real stinker. Even a couple posts I made to this board, MUCH more negative and hostile than is characteristic of me, OUCH !
~~~~This is NOT all the time, but has happened more than once. When I'm NOT in cluster, I sometimes get a little "hot", but normally realize it. Perhaps this is just another manifestation of the loss of focus I mentioned in the prior message.