Posted by Cheryl G on April 30, 1999 at 01:35:21:
I've been reading this site for a few months now and I don't say very much, but I sure do cry alot. Just when I think I can't handle it anymore I check in and find that things aren't so bad for me. Well tonite I'm feeling pretty sad about me. A week and a half ago I had a Hyserectomy, quit smoking (or rather I'm trying to) but, now the headaches are back full force. I stopped taking the Sancert before surgery because I wasn't sure if it would effect anything during the operation. Well now I start my days with 2 ch's right off the bat and have to walk it out slowly so not to overdue my stomach healing. Thank God I'm on med. leave for the surgery at least I'll get paid during my leave of absents. Anyway days are long and nights are longer. I thought I'd have the strengh to stop smoking and that just puts me further in the dumps for not have the will power to quit. You think I could throw away the packs I have at the house but I'm to weak in sprit to let them go. I know I'm just rambling on here but its 1:30 in the am and I can't sleep and I don't want to wake up to the monster knocking on my head.
This is a great site and I'm glad I found it. I truly love to read the poems and stories. I'm not good with putting my pain into words and so many of the stories and poems hit the nail right on the head (ouch). I'll keep coming back to this site cause it makes me feel at home. Again I don't often respond but I do feel for all you guys out there and I continue to pray for an answer to the pain.